St. Stephens

This towering beauty looms over its square with splendor and grace. History exudes from it's intricately tiled roof and, oh, if walls could talk! St. Stephan's Cathedral is among the most beautiful places in Vienna. Stephansplatz--the city center, was an almost daily sight when I lived just a few train stops away.



Stephansplatz and Stephanskirche in Vienna

Everything is seeming to crash on me at once. And constantly. Think waves. Not the lazy river kind, but the surfing kind. The ones that cap so magnificently and steal you away for those few moments when you're not sure if you're gonna breathe again any time soon.
Missing Vienna is hard. It's so incredible to talk about it with people who have been there--to share stories and reminisce about those surreal 3 months we spent in that beautiful place. I feel really lucky to be connected like that. But talking about it sometimes just makes me miss it more. Life was easy in Vienna. Life was nearly perfect, and it it wasn't always just that, a little slice of anna torte from Demels could have made it so. The thing about missing Vienna is even though I want to go back--I have to go back--I don't know when that's going to be. It could be right after college, it could be when I'm 74. The determination is there, so I know I will be back, but it's the waiting that's killing me. It's the fact that I can't spout off all the stops on the U1 anymore, and it's that the smell of Kebaps and Maronis are slowly fading from my senses. The pictures are beautiful and stories are wonderful reminders, but nothing is quite as real as it is when you emerge from underground at Stephansplatz with St. Stephens towering over you in the square.
I have loved theatre for a very long time. And I hope that my frustration with it passes as quickly as it came. I want to love my job again. I want to be on fire for the art form that is unlike any other. There is so much that I remember loving about theatre, and I want it back. And that's all I'm going to say about that, because I could write about it for hours and not say everything I'm thinking.
Other thoughts that don't need explanations:
-I can't wait for October.
-I'm excited for HP7pt2
-I miss my family
-Sometimes all you need is a new perspective, a little encouragement, a short pep talk, and some words of wisdom from a really amazing friend. Add all that together, and you've got to feel at least a little better.
-You may be the missing piece to a puzzle, but it isn't necessarily this one.

Checkpoint

For as long as I can remember, and especially within the last year or so, my life has been all about "checkpoints". A checkpoint is any time I look forward to that marks a new start, a major event, etc. Summer and start of school have always been checkpoints. There's also the small ones, like a Sunday day off, or a Friday paycheck. I live my life checkpoint to checkpoint, and sometimes it's frustrating to look back at a piece of my life and see that I've wished it away.

I check pointed to summer 2010. Then, although I had the time of my life, I couldn't wait to board that plane to Vienna. Those 4 months in Vienna were somewhat surreal, in that I honestly wasn't wishing for any specific time--I had a marvelous time just living. And it was wonderful and beautiful and serene to just exist in a country that had so much to offer. But December finally rolled around, and there I was (finally) boarding a plane that took me back to the US. Then it was January and time for an internship. I then checkpointed to this summer and now that we're two weeks in, all I want is be back at Webster.

So because I love this theatre, and I love the work they do, I'm going to enjoy this summer!! It's going to be amazing, I'm just waiting for things to get rolling--the part where I don't sleep a lot and drink way too much and am too busy to wish I wasn't. And as much as I want to be back at Webster, I'm going to start living where life has put me. You never know when you're going to be in the right place at the right time for something to happen. And you could wait your whole life for that something amazing to happen, or you could just love what is right in front of you.

Fine Line

"I guess you never know till you reach the top, if it was worth the uphill climb."

Of All the People

By the by, this is Interlaken, Switzerland.

At Long Last

Belvedere Palace, Vienna

For almost thirty years I repeatedly saw one and the same dream: I would arrive in Vienna at long last. I would feel really happy, for I was returning to my serene childhood.

 Alfred Schnittke

Graduation Goggles

“The point is you can’t trust graduation goggles. They are just as misleading as beer goggles, bridesmaid goggles and that’s just a bulky outdated cell phone in his front pocket goggles.” - Robin, HIMYM”

Captivated

Do you remember the last time you were captivated? It was the lights shining down on that stage, glowing through the haze with just the right amount of beauty. It was the way the lead singer in her curly wig and red lips held that note with the most amazing vibrato and filled the space around you with a sound so real you could touch it. It was the dancers virtually floating across the stage or it was the way the lyrics seemed to relate to only you. There you were, in that dark theatre, when nothing else but the world of the play existed--you didn't even check your program, you didn't even wonder what time it was, because it was midnight in 1931 Berlin or it was 1967 New York City and it was 1955 London.


—Verb
1.  to attract and hold the attention or interest of, as by beauty or excellence; enchant

And it's not just theatre that captivates me. It's the craned neck that starts to ache because you can't tear your eyes away from the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel. It's standing at the bottom of the Alps in Switzerland and it's watching the lights dance on the Grand Canal in Venice. For me, it's standing in front of the massive "Die Seelen Am Acheron" (The Souls of Acheron) at the Belvedere in Vienna.

—Synonyms 
1.  fascinate, bewitch, charm.

I'm enchanted by the love of friends and the unconditional support of family. I'm fascinated by a book that can take me somewhere else and make my world melt so easily into another. I am captivated by adventures and the future.

When was the last time you were truly captivated?

When was the last time everything truly fell away around you, until you and your subject were the only things you were aware of?
Be captivated. Be active. Seek out things that will hold your interest. Find something that makes your heart flutter for the sheer reason that it's never seen anything so magnificent.

Let yourself be captivated. It only takes a moment.

Quote

“Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as fuck and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget that you have school the next day. Stop waiting for Friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours. When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?”

Slow Down, You Crazy Child

When will you realize,

Vienna waits for you?

Karlskirche-Vienna, Austria

Life is not a destination. It's a journey. It's not a means to an end-why is everyone trying to get to the next "checkpoint" in their lives? Can't anyone slow down and see the beauty that is in this world for us? Don't just stop and smell the roses. Stop and talk to the people. See the beauty in the living and the inanimate. The buildings and the people who built them. The creativity that sparked in their minds as they thought up this wonderous thing you're seeing, staring at, in awe of. Life would be a little more wonderful, don't you think, if people would stop and take in the beauty that they pass by every day. Don't take life and all it has to offer for granted. Every scene you see is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, so treat it as such because you're never going to see the same thing twice. Learn to love the uniqueness of each and every moment.

Winter Wonderland of Heldenplatz and the Rathaus